when everything turns to blue....

i dont know where to start...

this past few days was really stressful
i went tru alot (as in alotsss) of struggles
i dont even know if i act normal, i behave so rude, i'm so selfish
i should say that my life is a mess...

i thought i can, i thought i'm matured enough to face all the barriers in life...but i'm wrong...i'm certainly wrong!!...
i act so stupid!!
i'm so selfish in a way that i want things to happen according to my plan for me not to hurt
i was a great adviser but the problem is i can't even solve my own problem
i know what is the right and wrong
though i want to do the right one but it hurts me so much
i step down my ego just to satisfy my id
i was a god damn stupid to act like this
i know i'm wrong but what i'm going to do?...

i was really in pain
i went tru the DABDA process but i'm still in denial, the anger was there, i'm still in acceptance stage, depression was also still there! but i'm looking forward for acceptance i know it will takes time, i dont even know if when?...
all i know is i'm really hurting

i'm still wishing na sana ndi nangyari to....

and i'm looking forward na sana maging ok p lhat...

*****i want a shoulder to lean on******