being a public health

it's been 3 months na rin sice i practice public health nursing..

i'm very much honest that i'll never dreamed to be a public health nurse...
but i really learned to appreciate it, to value it..
i thought public health is very easy...but no!...it's really hard because our focus is not the patient its self but rather the whole community...
it's hard because i have to deal them because their came from different religions, provinces...they have their own believes...we have to deal with them without offending them

i'm enjoying my work now...
i'm enjoying community services...
i know that health education, prevention should start in the community...because some of them are indigent..
some of them don't value health...
most of them need to enlighten their mind about the important of health...

if people just see their situation...
i know sometimes we should blame them too kc libre na nga and yet they don't go to center for immunization, for check up...
they stood in their beleive na its ok lng...gagaling din yan...

they are really lack of knowledge about health...if how important health is

such a great pretender...

i'm trying to control everything that is happening today...specially my emotion...

i have to hide it!i have to shed it..
i have to pretend that everything was okey, that everything was going smoothly...

i just hate myself for being so foolish..
for being to kind...
for being to good to be true...
for being so stupid...

i just have this stupid feeling that we will be ok again STUPID!...

i just can't control my tears, when we have this short conversation thru SMS
i was really surprise...
i can't help but wipe my tears when he said sorry...(for no known reason i cried, nd i can't shed it!!i know someone saw me nasa parlor kc me dat tym)
i feel his sincerity when he said so...
i know he might thought that i'm ok now...that i pushed him away
but if he just know what my real feeling is...
if u just know how much i want to keep u...
nd i hope u know it...

my warm condolence for you...
i will always be here for you, no matter what

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VIVA ATENEO!..one big fight!

it is really a one big fight for ateneo blue eagle...

they won with flying colors...

i'm really a self confessed frustrated atenean...

i really wanted to study in ateneo...

nd sayang i dont had a chance to watch the game live in araneta today..

i had no idea that the game today is ateneo vs. la salle

so i just watch it in studio 23...

they won hehehe

I miss the UAAP fever, the huge crowd..

all out ang support ni chris tiu nd l.a tenorio sa former team nila..

same wid other former player of la salle like macky cardona..

but anyways..

rabeh is really a great player he deserve to be MVP...galing panalo ang mga moves nia

same with nonoy baclao nd erik salamat (which i read from jiggy cruz blog former pres. cory aquino like nonoy baclao)

nd of course jia reyes, nd long...the whole team of ateneo...

it is really a ONE BIG FIGHT..

salamat, paalam 'tay abad

it's been a year of battle...my lolo passed away last august 2..

he suffered from esophageal mass cancer (one of the leading disorder, that cause death)..

last december when he first diagnosed esophageal cancer in lady matiatrix in lipa batangas, the option in order him to survive is to undergone operation, but my lolo refused...

by late december and early january of this year the family decided to ask for second opinion in one of the known cancer home in tarlac in Farah Arsenio Care for Cancer Patient nd Nursing Home...until they decided to go back in batangas nd last august 2 he passed away, without us knowing...we are all their in batangas that time, but unfortunately no one witness his last breath, no one heard his last word...he passed away peacefully

it's been a year of battle...but now his gone, now his with our Almighty God side, his now our angel, our guardian...

we might called him in different way, some called him mamay, some called him tatay abad, some called him lolo nd my grandmother called him "pareng abad"...

my lolo passed away at age of 75, not that bad actually...but the fact that really hurt us is everytime we saw him in pain, we saw him suffered from dysphagia, the sudden weight loss...we dont want him to suffer from more pain...since he celebrated his 75th birthday i already accepted the fact that anytime he will gone thu it's really painful...but i don't want him to suffer to more pain...i can no longer look at him evrytime we visit him, his already bedridden, he can no longer eat...and it hurt us much when we saw his situation...

WHAT I REMEMBER TO MY LOLO?

i would always remember his last word to me: "salamat ah!"...
i was really touch when my lolo say thank you to me that was last june when i accompanied him in his weekly check-up, malakas pa sya dat time...

nd i remember when we are still a kid, takot kame sa kanya, kc madalas lasing cia noon, nd i remember umiiyak na ako noon kapag parating na sia, nd mahilig cia mglaro ng tong-its dati me mga classmate pa nga cia kapag nglalaro nd one time nakapagserve aq ng meryenda sa kanila...

but as days goes by, malaki pinagbago nia, naging mabiro na sia sa amin mga apo nia, makulit pa nga cia...napaka bait nia...

i might never got a chance to say thank you to him, but you know, wherever are you now, "i wat to say thank u, for being our lolo, now that you're gone i promise you that we will take care your beloved widow, our lola so much, thank you for all the memories, learnings nd knowledge u impart to us, you will always be here in my heart mamay...nd mahal na mahal ka nmin..."

we know that you are happy now, now that you reunited to your father...

mahal na mahal ka nmin...

thnx..

just wanna tnx all people who are part of me..who guided me, who supported me, who molded me nd who inspired me for the past 22 years of life..

words are not enough to say thank you, wherever i'am now is all because of all of you...

to all my classmates, batchmates, friends, mentors, clinical instructors, professors, teachers since kindergarten and of course my families from both parties the garcia's and recuerdo's...thank you so much...thank you for inspiring me, thank you for rising me well:-)

now that i'm entering my new chapter of my life i hope all of you guys will continue to support and guide me as what you did in my past 22 years of life...

nd ofcourse to my heavenly father who is my bestfriend, the one who knows everything that i went tru...thank you so much

love you all nd godbless

i'm back after a month of soul searching...

...huh! i'm back for good after almost 3 weeks of vacation in my hometown...
for good kc officially today start na ako sa work ko as a Nurse in Paranaque Health Dept..

medyo ok na ako compard before, i still hope nd pray na sana someday actually by tomorrow makarecieve aq ng txt coming from him...i'm dying i really miss him...his presence...everything...

ang dami ngyari actually i will share it this coming weekend.. kapagod kc ang first day ko as a health advocator...taga thermometer check as a preventive measure to avoid the transmission of AH1N1 virus...

goodluck to me...

nd my birthday is coming hehehehe

godbless me nd all of us..

mwah

i just really miss the old times...

it's been a year na rin since i/we graduated. College days is full of hindrance and struggles. It made me to be a better person, it molded me to be who i'am now. My journey to college days is really a roller coaster ride. Before, i thought if u'r a college student u'r matured enough to face every struggles in life, but it depends upon to one person. I took up nursing for unknown reason (just to be honest!), way back high school days i really wanted to be a pharmacist (hahaha but know i realized ang harap ng pharmacology subj q before!) and to be a journalist..but anyways i took up nursing just out of the blue but i dont have any regrets that i took it up because i learn alot from it theoretically and scientifically speaking.

i appreciate nursing since ng start na ang clinical exposures i love it!i certainly love it!, got a chance to handle different cases, exposed in different environment, got a chance to touch lives, 50/50 survival rate of a patient, it is our/my honor to be handled by our/my clinical instructors who are very much willing to share there knowledge, teach us well and to be our inspiration to reach our dream and of course the most important is to bond with my groupmates, who are my partners in crime in doing the undying case presentation and documentation. I really should say that I had a great time with them. I (together with rho, noli and te ela) originally from group 2, but due to some reason nalipat kameng apat sa group 3, at first me hinayang factor kc why?it's been a year na din nmn silang goupmates but all of the sudden malilipat kame ng group and syempre I got a feeling na di nila kame tanggap kc me napahiwalay din silang groupmates because nalipat kame sa kanila nd other factor din siguro dat tym is we are not yet closed that time hehehehe, but life goes on we should start again it is another chapter of our life. as days goes by , we got a chance to know each other well until the time came na maging close and comfortable na kame sa isat-isa. As a evidence, to proof our closeness my friend and groupmate jomz compiled all the pics during duty days and fun momments that our group shared and she created a video as her grad gift, a memorabilia...a very brilliant idea.

i love watching it, i really missed the old times, and the first time i watch it i got a teary eyed because i'm really touch and surprised that jomz created it. we went tru a lot...all the memories that we shared will always be in my heart.

where ever we are know, whatever path we crossed, we might not connected to each other now but i'm pretty much sure that all the memories that the group shared contribute to who we are know...and i know like i do all of you guys kept the memories in your heart...

i just want you to know guys, that I, MEL IS ALWAYS HERE FOR ALL OF YOU GUYS, THAT I'M PRAYING FOR THE SUCCESS OF EACH OF US, WHAT EVER PATH YOU CROSSED,MY SUPPORT IS ON YOU, IF EVER ALL OF YOU GUYS NEED A SHOULDER TO LEAN ON, I'M JUST HERE...GUYS, I'M MISSED ALL OF YOU, I'M REALLY REALLY MISS YOU GUYS...I LOVE YOU GUYS AND GODBLESS...I'M REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO SEE AND BOND WITH YOU GUYS"...i love you guys