salamat, paalam 'tay abad

it's been a year of battle...my lolo passed away last august 2..

he suffered from esophageal mass cancer (one of the leading disorder, that cause death)..

last december when he first diagnosed esophageal cancer in lady matiatrix in lipa batangas, the option in order him to survive is to undergone operation, but my lolo refused...

by late december and early january of this year the family decided to ask for second opinion in one of the known cancer home in tarlac in Farah Arsenio Care for Cancer Patient nd Nursing Home...until they decided to go back in batangas nd last august 2 he passed away, without us knowing...we are all their in batangas that time, but unfortunately no one witness his last breath, no one heard his last word...he passed away peacefully

it's been a year of battle...but now his gone, now his with our Almighty God side, his now our angel, our guardian...

we might called him in different way, some called him mamay, some called him tatay abad, some called him lolo nd my grandmother called him "pareng abad"...

my lolo passed away at age of 75, not that bad actually...but the fact that really hurt us is everytime we saw him in pain, we saw him suffered from dysphagia, the sudden weight loss...we dont want him to suffer from more pain...since he celebrated his 75th birthday i already accepted the fact that anytime he will gone thu it's really painful...but i don't want him to suffer to more pain...i can no longer look at him evrytime we visit him, his already bedridden, he can no longer eat...and it hurt us much when we saw his situation...

WHAT I REMEMBER TO MY LOLO?

i would always remember his last word to me: "salamat ah!"...
i was really touch when my lolo say thank you to me that was last june when i accompanied him in his weekly check-up, malakas pa sya dat time...

nd i remember when we are still a kid, takot kame sa kanya, kc madalas lasing cia noon, nd i remember umiiyak na ako noon kapag parating na sia, nd mahilig cia mglaro ng tong-its dati me mga classmate pa nga cia kapag nglalaro nd one time nakapagserve aq ng meryenda sa kanila...

but as days goes by, malaki pinagbago nia, naging mabiro na sia sa amin mga apo nia, makulit pa nga cia...napaka bait nia...

i might never got a chance to say thank you to him, but you know, wherever are you now, "i wat to say thank u, for being our lolo, now that you're gone i promise you that we will take care your beloved widow, our lola so much, thank you for all the memories, learnings nd knowledge u impart to us, you will always be here in my heart mamay...nd mahal na mahal ka nmin..."

we know that you are happy now, now that you reunited to your father...

mahal na mahal ka nmin...