such a great pretender...

i'm trying to control everything that is happening today...specially my emotion...

i have to hide it!i have to shed it..
i have to pretend that everything was okey, that everything was going smoothly...

i just hate myself for being so foolish..
for being to kind...
for being to good to be true...
for being so stupid...

i just have this stupid feeling that we will be ok again STUPID!...

i just can't control my tears, when we have this short conversation thru SMS
i was really surprise...
i can't help but wipe my tears when he said sorry...(for no known reason i cried, nd i can't shed it!!i know someone saw me nasa parlor kc me dat tym)
i feel his sincerity when he said so...
i know he might thought that i'm ok now...that i pushed him away
but if he just know what my real feeling is...
if u just know how much i want to keep u...
nd i hope u know it...

my warm condolence for you...
i will always be here for you, no matter what

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